Cut Throat I Know

I'm feeling shaky
but I know not a quarter percent half as bad as you be
the cracking pain in your knee the least of your worries
going on 48 hours and you've forgotten how to sleep
incapable of even day dreaming of resting easy
your mind's lost any reason to be stoked
you say you feel like dying
spirits weak and body choked / a vice within
tearing you apart from the inside outward prying
the bitterness ensues consuming
and I'm shocked silent
staring down the barrel of a temple
I was only passionate about worshiping in
but unbeknownst to me
I entered with tempered bombs
blasting from the lengths of my sleeves
hindered now
I was so distracted by your beauty
I ran in blazing forgot to remove my shoes
at the threshold
marking the temples glowing entrance
and when I open my eyes after the meditation
I look over my shoulder and find only desolation
at first lights reaction / I see no reason
to be blaming anyone but me
and as you burn to the ground you tell me
"this was no one's fault so stop with the sorrys
your apologies sounds are too loud
they compound / I just need to / lay down
I need you to / stay strong / sing songs
of positivity / of what's right cuz I already
know / what's wrong / the yolk around my neck
pulls on me like bull's horns invading my space
so babe / say to me anything optimistic
help remind me of my soul's strength
keep me in line with what's best of me
call me on my shit / keep me in check
babe I just need to hear your voice
but if you won't speak / I'ma beatbox
strum and ravage my gatbox and scream
really I mean no disrespect / no regrets
but babe I just need to hear your voice
so say to me anything say to me something
say to me anything or just shut the fuck up"

Right now it feels like there ain't
a lot I know inside of this holy moment
but i know the distance is killing me
and it's up to me to not only over come but own it
though I know that the second thing that I know
I guess it would be the third then considering
is that our passion has been stolen
by a fear of intimacy brought on
by the damage you have sustained
coupled in condemnation by an irony
we spoke of only in hushed tones
a scare we called pregnancy
a wavering uncertainty that breeds
a distance from you I am fighting
and the fourth thing that I know
is that I am winning / cuz I don't think
I fucking know that I can do anything
and I would let the streets run red
with the blood of our enemies to protect you
the fifth / we wished intensely from
the first moment our lips kissed and that is
that we would take this real love type love slowly
in retrospect perhaps we should have moved even slower
but I didn't recognize the vulnerability of inexperience
I told you I did and when I did even I believed it
but I guess I had more on you than just age
half a decade I thought didn't mean spit
but on second thought / on the sixth the seventh
the eighth thought ya know what?
my beautiful infinity my goddess my love?
fuck it
fuck all the thoughts and fuck the buts
fuck any and all doubt the reasons to give up
cuz we will only do everything
when we know that we can do anything
so I'ma cut the throat of the demon
that would take from us
our mutual lust and love
the single thing that meant the most to us
I'm stealing the passion back
I'm taking the passion back
I'm going to risk both our lives to get that passion back

Because I believe it's worth it
because I believe that with the unique love we create
we can bring into existence entire universes
that will bless all man kind and never leave us

and I also believe that there is hate
there is a hate that recognizes our potential
and will do fucking anything in it's power
to ensure that we turn against one another
to ensure for certain that we will crumble
we will be tested unlike anything we've ever known before
we will be brought to our buckling knees delirious and sore
we will be offered the suckling tit of what is easy
convinced that obligation
is synonymous with what we strive for
that us blooming is cavernous and sleazy
but when we want more we'll grab the rope
tap the lines with knowledge undeniable we are hope
personified in the great ocean we are white light
no words define the lightening we harness
but we work hard at finding the rhythm
we are the wisest we are the finesse
we are the finest we are the softest we are the hardest
because I believe that with the unique love we create
we can bring into existence entire universes
that will bless all man kind and never leave us
volcanoes erupting to tell you who is molten
just ask me and I'll tell you who's hottest
who's the choosen?
who's the softest?
who's the hardest?
who's the hardest?